Back in time

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Seeing that this is my first time blogging and I don't have a lot to say at this moment, I figure I will post some thoughts I wrote a few months ago.

8/7/2008 11:46pm

What is God’s Plan? Because of recent events that have happened in my life I have started asking myself this question once again. It seems odd to me that we only ask this question when our plans are interrupted. But let me ask you, the reader a question. When was the last time you didn't have a plan for your life and you were ok with it? It seems like God gave us this need and desire to plan, but when our plans are interrupted by circumstances we grind to a halt not knowing where to turn or what to do. Here is an excerpt from an email I sent when my plans came jolting to a halt.

Before I went to college I felt like I was standing at the edge of a cliff about to jump off into the dark abyss below, since then I feel like I have been climbing down the sheer rock wall and now and again I slip and fall a bit. But I have always been able to pick myself up and keep on going. I feel like this time I am still falling, dreading the moment when I hit the bottom and my lifeless body is shattered by the jagged rocks below. My stomach is sick from falling, and my mind is weak from trying to find a safety net in the darkness.

This is the feeling we all have when our plans collapse around us. We feel lost, frightened, lonely, scared, and hurt. So what do we do about it? It’s simple, turn to the Lord for strength, and insight. (I know you thinking, "What a church answer" but just listen for a sec) who is the creator...God. Who is omnipresent (everywhere all the time)...God. Who is omniscient (all knowing)...God. Who is omnipotent (all powerful)...God. Wow I sure feel like an idiot. Since when did I start thinking that I could come up with a better plan than God's? At what point did I start leaving God at church and start taking control of my own life? You see in the convoluted rendition of Christianity that most people practice today, it’s ok to do exactly that. Leave Christ at church and only use him when you need him. But I have a revolutionary idea for you. What if we stop letting other people set the example, even better yet what if we let Christ set the example? You see, before Jesus died on the cross for our sins he spent hours in the Garden of Gethsemane praying that, "this cup pass from me." Essentially Jesus was praying to the Father that the plan be changed so He did not have to suffer the pain He knew was coming. He was so stressed about Gods plan that he was literally sweating blood. But, yet in the end he gave Himself willingly for our sins, submitting Himself to His Father’s plan. Man, if we started living like that, and submitting to God's plan to the extent that we would be willing to die, what a difference we would make in this world. My prayer is that God will take this time in my life to teach me how to seek his plan. I have decided to follow Jesus, there will be no turning back...are you with me?